I feel so guilty for consistently clinging onto each and every moment of my life as if it were a stepping stone closer to finally being genuinely and truthfully happy
thoughts: every living being who has a right mind embedded within them searches amongst the most stupendous aspects of the virtual world in order to seek out some (foolish) strategic plan of guidance that is often presented to them through the thoughts and views of another (foolish) individual in order to take on some form of a tight grasp of how to absorb the slightest meaning of their own, personal life. but does seeking another’s understanding of how life is made out to be distort the personal aspect that we as curious individuals yearn for when attempting to make sense of the personal life roads ahead? and aside from the fact that it is another’s thoughts one is absorbing, isn’t it almost wrong to seek guidance from the virtual world when trying to fully grasp life’s meaning? from what I have begun to recollect about my past ventures, all my greatest, most influential lessons learned about how my life will pan out is through the nakedness of the nature world surrounding my very existence. individuals of society merely cheat themselves out of a greater good of life by leaning on others understandings. no wonder there are so many souls claimed to be “lost” in our society’s world of personal impairment.
who knows where these rambling thoughts are taking me, but I, for one, am sick of be one of those “lost” souls
attempting to write daily is overly struggle-some when I can hardly find the right words to approximate my most recent feelings but in a summary: the only thing I seem to be holding onto anymore is the promising hope of escaping everyone and everything bogging my ideally free soul down by indulging fully in the upcoming season of summer
what is mainstream anyways